Initially, i tot today's practice will be quite boring. well, they just had a performance ytd. So i went, and they started to watch a video of solos. hmm, i wasn't watching cos i was on the phone. i felt so paiseh... like i just came and i was so preoccupied with the phone that i din join the rest for quite a while. well, the phonecall was more impt than the video.

Well, we started orchestra-prac after the video at about 9+. like finally and i was soo happy. well, the songs are of kebun baru standard la. just needa sight-read and it's sufficient. i had my own fun playing music =) during the breaks, i began to practise those solos i learnt before. how much i've deproved! i was using the lousy erhu either qing or shan was using the prev time. it's really lousy la. it can't produce nice high-pitched sounds.

I forgot the guy's name, but it's probably the best erhu player in that orchestra. well, i shall name him "that guy". That guy was the only guy around. apparently, the other hongkongers din come. so it was just the 2 of us supporting the whole group. he's quite good and nice actually. he's nice to talk to, unlike first impression. well, he may be kinda ego sometimes too but when our bowing was in contradicting directions, we were like laughing at each other. he helped me quite a bit during the songs. if only he was exposed to more difficult music, he'll become a really good player n one who can appreciate good music. he's gonna bring his HuHanRou erhu for me nex week =DD weee!! good erhu!!

Actually, after i went off during dinner to catch the 6.35pm 350 bus, i waited in vain for quite some time, only to miss the 250 bus. Then i realised that they changed the entire stupid bus schedule and the 6.35pm bus was taken away. i was like wth wth wth. so i rushed off to take the tram to get to jaey's place to try her choc cake. haha...i reached rather late but well, just in time to savour the cake. it was nice! expectedly. i hope i dun get food poisoning =.= but it's really nice. i wouldn't mind the once-in-a-blue-moon cheesecake =)

Oh ya...for some reason, i keep meeting a lot of people i know todae. during the one hr break, i met Dominic whom i haven't talked to in ages but i managed to exchange a few words with him. Then i met charles whom i haven't talked to ever since the dinner but well, i was rushing off to the bus terminal when i met him. hmm... who else... i can't recall. i just remember talking to many people todae, even though the conversations were rather short.

I was thinking about myself for some time. am i taking things for granted? well, recently, i tend to adopt a external locus of control, trying to blame people for many things. but i failed to reflect upon my own mistakes. i sae things as though i noe a lot, but i dun really understand the whole situation. i may perceive things in one way, but the other party may be thinking in the opposite direction. by doing so, i may have failed to notice cues that someone is in need of help. I think i'm being too self-centred these days, thinking that the world revolves around me. well, it's not usually so. i think it's time i become more humble and stop being mean to other people. while i complained about being hurt, i think i'm also hurting some others in the process.