Thursday, November 27, 2008

1.5 months after my last post, i shall still abide by my thoughts and perspectives =)
Maybe my determination to keep these thoughts and perspectives mean that I'm a changed person eh? haha! Somehow i became slightly more effective at persuading myself to become less aggressive and judgemental. I wonder how much more effective though? Mebbe towards some only... lol

Sunday, October 12, 2008

i've just taken my first step towards my resolution.
Only a few people know what it means...
That first step towards cutting the line was not an easy step, and it wasn't easy for me to bear with but I will hold on.
Despite my actions being inappropriate and illogical, my closest friends still supported me
I thank them for that support

I hope history will be history
but history continues to haunt me non-stop in different disguises
"history repeats itself"
Maybe nothing is history unless those events become invisible and out of reach
or the perpetrators are enlightened about how much hurt and sorrow they are causing

the perpetrators usually have no idea or assumes too much
I learnt in nursing that what matters most isn't what is logical or illogical
but whether one learns to understand another's perspectives
People can view a simple event differently
I view it my way and you view it yours
The most difficult part is, whether i can understand how you perceive it
and accept it
Well, maybe such a theory is just delusional
because everyone's self-centred and selfish nowadays
that includes me
I'm trying not to expect that much now
so i shall cut off the line
and save the trouble for every self-centred person

*hopes i can smile more widely than before

Saturday, October 11, 2008

just to mention happy stuff...
i) i played ultimate frisbee today!! so nice~~~ i miss playing ultimate frisbee back in hwachong. used to be so much more fun playing in the central plaza. Well, the frisbee i brought over is kinda breaking into pieces but today, victory brought her frisbee down! it's a super nice one like those that mx has. Then since we had more ppl playing frisbee todae, we managed to start a game of ultimate frisbee with 3 per team =) initially ppl were getting bored because no one was scoring but once they found out that it was not that difficult to score, everyone was motivated to play! then a series of scoring came la.. but we became too tired from playing cos there were only 3 ppl running round the whole area in each team.

ii) after starting my semester 2, i got to involve myself in mroe game sports like badminton and frisbee which i really enjoyed myself playing (at least, they r the 2 games i can play well).

iii) i returned hy's uncle's coat already!

Thursday, September 11, 2008

I just felt disappointed again... Maybe my likes just didn't click with the rest. The things that i like to do didn't click with the rest. Whatever i really really like, no one actually likes.

I love playing music together with other people. i just like the idea of playing in groups, or just duets. I just like singing along with other people, dancing with other people, i just like immersing myself in music together with the others. but the people around me don't like it the way i do.

I don't like soloing, that's why i've never entered a single examination or competition. I'm not playing music for the sake of some grade to prove that i'm a skilful person. I'm not out to prove that i'm an expert in music. I just like the idea of enjoying myself while playing music. I improve myself constantly not just because i'm some blardy competitive person. I just like the exposure to more music to gain more experience. In order to play more music, and more difficult, and nicer pieces, the only method was to improve myself. If i'm really such a competitive person, i'd be rushing to obtain grades, get some diploma or whatever and show the whole world that HEY! i'm the best around here, don't mess with me. If i'm really such a competitive person, i'd probably enjoy solos more than orchestras. Orchestras do not allow u to stand out at all. In fact, u can only be any other player in the group. I don't mind solos from time to time, but only in orchestra pieces. i don't really want to play a solo in front of the audience. yes, i'm not that good. but even if i am, i don't really want it either. a solo part is good, but not a solo piece.
I don't like playing by myself. i feel so lonely, and i feel that the music is horrible. Never mind that it's chinese music or whatever. Any music... i don't mind sitting there and listen, but i wanna play together too. forget it. Maybe i'm just some eccentric and unique brat who revolves around some group effect crap. I shall stop listening. I'll just do what i like. I'll just go out as per normal in search of things i like to do and dedicate myself to it. I'm sure i'm able to find people who similarly, just enjoy the idea of playing music, and enjoy the idea of playing together.
I think it's time to stop assumptions from going around. i'm sick of it, sick of admitting myself to things that are not true. i'm sick of holding on to one-sided rltns. i'm sick of tolerating all the rubbish in the world, including myself. i shall be the other me, mean.

Tuesday, August 19, 2008

Initially, i tot today's practice will be quite boring. well, they just had a performance ytd. So i went, and they started to watch a video of solos. hmm, i wasn't watching cos i was on the phone. i felt so paiseh... like i just came and i was so preoccupied with the phone that i din join the rest for quite a while. well, the phonecall was more impt than the video.

Well, we started orchestra-prac after the video at about 9+. like finally and i was soo happy. well, the songs are of kebun baru standard la. just needa sight-read and it's sufficient. i had my own fun playing music =) during the breaks, i began to practise those solos i learnt before. how much i've deproved! i was using the lousy erhu either qing or shan was using the prev time. it's really lousy la. it can't produce nice high-pitched sounds.

I forgot the guy's name, but it's probably the best erhu player in that orchestra. well, i shall name him "that guy". That guy was the only guy around. apparently, the other hongkongers din come. so it was just the 2 of us supporting the whole group. he's quite good and nice actually. he's nice to talk to, unlike first impression. well, he may be kinda ego sometimes too but when our bowing was in contradicting directions, we were like laughing at each other. he helped me quite a bit during the songs. if only he was exposed to more difficult music, he'll become a really good player n one who can appreciate good music. he's gonna bring his HuHanRou erhu for me nex week =DD weee!! good erhu!!

Actually, after i went off during dinner to catch the 6.35pm 350 bus, i waited in vain for quite some time, only to miss the 250 bus. Then i realised that they changed the entire stupid bus schedule and the 6.35pm bus was taken away. i was like wth wth wth. so i rushed off to take the tram to get to jaey's place to try her choc cake. haha...i reached rather late but well, just in time to savour the cake. it was nice! expectedly. i hope i dun get food poisoning =.= but it's really nice. i wouldn't mind the once-in-a-blue-moon cheesecake =)

Oh ya...for some reason, i keep meeting a lot of people i know todae. during the one hr break, i met Dominic whom i haven't talked to in ages but i managed to exchange a few words with him. Then i met charles whom i haven't talked to ever since the dinner but well, i was rushing off to the bus terminal when i met him. hmm... who else... i can't recall. i just remember talking to many people todae, even though the conversations were rather short.

I was thinking about myself for some time. am i taking things for granted? well, recently, i tend to adopt a external locus of control, trying to blame people for many things. but i failed to reflect upon my own mistakes. i sae things as though i noe a lot, but i dun really understand the whole situation. i may perceive things in one way, but the other party may be thinking in the opposite direction. by doing so, i may have failed to notice cues that someone is in need of help. I think i'm being too self-centred these days, thinking that the world revolves around me. well, it's not usually so. i think it's time i become more humble and stop being mean to other people. while i complained about being hurt, i think i'm also hurting some others in the process.

Thursday, August 14, 2008

Just came back from the dinner. I really did enjoy myself. i think it's one of the best dinner i've ever had. It made dinners like the faculty and glenn dinner pale in comparison. It was held at this place called Leonda at Yarra in Hawthorn. it's a very nice but posh place. took us about 0.5hrs to get there by chartered bus. every single girl was wearing skirts except us. hahaha!

People whom i knew include py, faezah, sam, chinatsu and yuki. there were fellow glennies like michelle from my floor. I know that 2 more were from my floor too. forgot their names. lol. There weren't many glennies around though. We were assigned to specific seats and tables. py got to sit with the warden and anthony and the other glennies. haha. i was away from her. i sat with yuki and a few other internationals. my table was famously known as the internationals table according to Dai Harris. Yuki, me, Nhu (frm graduate house), charles (menzies), Galle (menzies. dun think her name's spelling was rite) and another chisholm guy (which i dislike) were sitting together with the director of LTI. haha. Yuki, charles, galle and i talked quite a bit. galle's from mauritius, like sharon. Her sister is staying in sg! in sengkang too!! behind my house too!!!! haha!! charles was very nice to talk to. i actually saw him on quite a few occasions but i guess today's the day where i really got to know him. yuki!! miss miss miss nice nice yuki =) i wanna go osaka and stay at yuki's place!

highlight of the post: FOOD of course =) it was a 3 course meal. it started with an entree. some salad thing with meat. it had a tasty sauce. i think it was sweet chilli sauce, mixed with veg, some beehoon and yea, meat. main course was chicken. according to py's style of description = it's tender, juice and moist. when u bite it, the juice just squirts out and the sauce blends in very well with the chicken. HAHA! ok i don't sound like her. faezah and i were betting that she would describe it that way. unfortunately, her piece of chicken wasn't that desirable =P there was salmon also and it looked really good. there was potatoes as side dish. the potato didn't look tantalizing at all but it tasted so so so good. the salad was really awesome too. dessert was the highlight of the whole thing! it was this triple chocolate with a thin layer of choc cake at the bottom. it was so so so wonderful. i just savoured every single mouthful. so sinful! but i love it so much. chinatsu and i were chanting..."mousse mousse mousse" when we saw the cake coming out =)

The whole involves... entertainment = music played by students from the different colleges. it was quite nice. i really liked the music. then everyone started dancing at the end of the dinner. it was very funnie! seeing dai harris and linda kirkman dance. linda kirkman is so so nice and cute. haha! there were many other people dancing too. I actually saw bill mcguinness there! i think he was representing health sciences. This is the first time i enjoyed dancing with the rest of the people. it was not the party party kind. it's not like...drinking and dancing. it was just like grooving to the music: retro and other good songs. but the dance ended with the wild strawberries song which i hated. oh well, py wun dance of course. budden, the chisholm people joined in. sam really liked dancing hurr...

ok la. it was quite nice. we saw the funny side of many ppl there. py probably enjoyed chatting with anthony and bret =p well, made a few friends too i guess, like charles and galle. but i forgot to get their contacts. oh, i got to know some other glennies too. dunno whether we'll talk when we meet again but i hope we will.
Tonite's the night of the gala dinner. I wonder what i haven't updated about. Hmm, was just wondering, what kind of good food they'll provide us. Glenn's formal dining isn't that nice. It just looks better, not like some random buffet we have everyday. the only good thing about glenn formal dining is the dessert =) the dessert is awfully good for the 2 formal dinings we had. we had fruit tarts and muffin with caramel. well, not all people like it. i do =)

Anyway, yesterday i was fairly irritated with some comments i received. well, people tend to view our group of glennies as muggers, studious, no fun. Well, i admit the muggers part. but i disagreed that our group lacked fun. We have our own share of fun, in a different way. The other internationals partying and chatting as part of their fun and activities. I'm aware that they do go out together sometimes of trips but it involves partying. Partying may be the mainstream culture over here, but it doesn't mean that it's the only source of "fun" and the only other meaning to "fun". i may not be sporty, but that doesn't mean that the rest are very sporty either? I think most of the time they just stay in the room and watch shows or play comp games? is that defined as having "life"? and us, the constant muggers = no "life"?
Our fun involves cooking together, playing around together in the davidson room, playing music together, chatting, going out together sometimes and playing our own kind of games. we don't party (except for me) because we don't accept that as "fun".
I'm also quite irritated at the fact they classify us as "those singaporeans". It's an individual thing. we, happen to be mostly singaporeans, just tend to do things similarly. It's a pity that the person failed to view us individually. At least, i don't classify his countrymen as all party kids who don't bother about studying and care only about drinking even though most of them do (shan't mention the country). at least, i noticed an exception somewhere in the very same college.

Olympics update. Stephanie rice won 2 gold medals! way to go, pretty girl! and eamon sullivan is on the road to winning his gold medal!! sullivan better win something. and i hope the two of them get together again after olympics =D haha...wonder i'm watching the olympics for. looking forward to synchronized swimming! missed out diving but oh well. good job tao li! for getting into the finals =) I've been reading aussie news everyday for olympics update. well, the news is all about aussies... so i noe more about the participants in aussie than elsewhere except for michael phleps. haha... that amazing water guy.

oh ya, yesterday there was this "slums" thing going on after dinner. it's this binge drinking + drinking games kinda thing between guys and girl organised by the seniors for the juniors. it was insane. people were drunk by 9+ when sharon and i were watching olympics. could see some RAs busy carrying drunk ppl back. What's worse was, we witnessed 2 girls spraining the ankles or injuring their legs. i think it was horrible because we could see that the girls were in extreme pain. hmmm.. wonder why they still have it. could see that many ppl were having hangovers and behaving weirdly even in the morning during brekkie. some ppl din go for lects. apparently, edgar witnessed a making-out incident. lol! and right before slums started, the toilets outside my area were flooded. wth. i have to walk a long way to get to the next toilet. so shitty. and someone obviously forgot to flush the toilet after shitting in the morning. zzz.

Sunday, August 10, 2008

Trying to be a good girl, constantly updating my blog. I wonder how long i can persist. But well, whenever i start to blog, i neglect reading other blogs. zzz... when can i establish that balance?
This weekend has been a really busy one. The busy times started on thurs...

The few of us skipped a lecture to go out to ikea to get qing shan's prezzies. We didn't take very long to get there but we took quite a bit of time to choose the presents. As usual, ikea and its huge selection of products never failed to stop me from scrutinizing every single one. There were many toys, some of which i was veri tempted to get for myself which i wouldn't wanna get on my bdae either =P If only ikea sells bolsters. We got giraffes to add to their collection of toys. then, py and i headed off to the city. PY went to buy materials for sat's pot luck and i went imax to buy tickets for fri's The dark knight session. By the time we got back, we were really tired. i din manage to do anything after dinner.

On fri, morning was packed with a lecture and a self-practice session of assessing vital stats. Missies came to my room to have lunch after that. from evening onwards, after dinner, the glennies + ahxiang went out to the city to meet the rest of the people. We met at federation square for the olympics pre-games. There wasn't much at the pregames... just some intro of athletes. There was face-painting there so some of us got our faces painted with icons of the Beijing olympics. then some of us got handphone keychains with the olympic mascots. hehhh... my single handphone keychain got all 5 mascots on it =D We couldn't catch the opening ceremony because of the movie. Well, i din regret missing the ceremony either because the movie at IMAX was simply great. The screen was HUGE and yea, the place accommodated many many people. it was full house that night (the 9.40pm show). there were scenes of people jumping down from buildings and how i hate those scenes because of my height phobia. I was clinging to Gin (who's beside me). zzz... Well, heath ledger was great. a pity...such a good actor... Well, we rushed back just in time to watch the end of the opening ceremony where the olympic torch was passed to the last person. the guy who was hoisted up and ran the whole stadium in the air, i really admire him. His stamina and stuff are really really good. it's really spectaculer, the last scene and everything else in the end. i bet the front was even better.

On sat, i was kept busy the moment i woke up. went to preston to shop for pot luck. py, jo and i decided to cook cup corn and agar-agar. We got the stuff and by the time we reached back at glenn, it was already 1pm. Then we started making agar-agar while i cooked lunch. I fried elbows with nasi goreng paste and sambal anchovies. The taste was acceptable =P Our agar-agar was a bit weird in the sense that, we couldn't get some of the clumping off. well, somehow we pulled it off. Then we started cooking corn. omg...we used a whole lot of butter. better not let those who ate the corn find out. Then we were kept busy with preparing for qing shan's bdae surprise. We were designing the ice cream we bought for them as part of the surprise. i got a rude shock when i came in to find py n jo eating frm the ice cream tubs. actually, they were creating channels to form the names so that we can drop rainbow chips in. HAHA! Then after that, i went back to my room to prepare the presents for the 2 of them: creating dog tags for their giraffes. after that py and i went out to get the bdae cake. we took the security bus and we met qing shan at the bus terminal!! lol! actually, they din really see us (shan told us later that she did). we ran off to hide behind a wall while waiting for them to leave. zzz... in the end, we missed the tram and the shop was closing in a few mins time. so i ran all the way to the shop (about one tram stop's dist) to stop the shop from closing. it was super cold so i think my throat was partially frozen. We got the cake =D After that, we headed back to glenn for the parade. Yea... we surprised qing shan the moment we got back (who thought the cake was for ndp). NDP parade was quite nice, but as usual, i nearly fell asleep during the performance part after the march. The food kept me awake =) After the parade, we surprised the two of them with their fav flavours of icecream and new member to their soft toy collection. haha... all of us ended up dancing the hwachong mass dances together. i think some of them found it fun =) well, i guess i had the most fun. When everyone left, the glennies (sharon, py, jo, me and nic the ex-glenny) stayed around to play the piano and watch youtube videos and sang along until about 1am. lol...
I think the celebrating ndp overseas has made it more significant. I was very proud of my own country at that moment. well, i really missed home too...esp when my extended family went out together to celebrate my grandma's bdae. chilli crab =( i got to meet my grandma over 3G =))))

Tired tired tired on sunday. Tried to do some studying. finding time to relax and watch shows... but cos i slept too much to recover energy, i din do much either. haiiiz...

~possess the protection for my happiness: the omomodi. but what does "my happiness" represents? does it mean everything? I hope it includes all aspects of my life~

Wednesday, August 6, 2008

Very lazy to blog, but i shall blog again.
Just some updates about life.
- Semester 2 started and a load of work has just been thrown upon me
- I went Tasmania during the june/july hols and had quite a bit of fun there. I had my real experience with snow and snowing and i made plenty of snowmen and snowangels and snow figurines. i think that's the highlight of the whole trip =D see my snowangel on my msn display pic.
- Hy came to melb and we went to many places in melb like dandenong, belgrave and mt buller.
- After coming back from Tazzie, went out wif jaey n gang to some laserquest thing at crown casino. quite fun leh, considering that i was within top 3 for both games. heh...showing off now.
- Then, on one of the weekends, we went to erm, davina's place to celebrate her 21st bdae at Wangarratta. That place is really sweet and davina's place is really really huge! she has her own garden and stuff. We made sushi at her place at part of appetizers and i succeeded at my 2nd attempt at making onigiri! Weee! Then erm we just hung around her house for dinner and so on. I love davina's cat, called ella. She's such a nice cat to cuddle (no lah, just scratch and stroke only)
Did have quite a bit of fun over there with the rest of the ppl, but i guess i was really really tired at the end of it.
- Lotsa work to do, but apparently, most of my weekends are occupied with random stuff. This fri, will be watching dark knight at IMAX (something like omnitheatre in sg). Sat, we'll be celebrating national dae in glenn. LOL! it'll be a "party" at davidson room.
-Visited jaey on my way to CO (as described in the prev post). she treated me to wonderful wonderful ritz bikkies with CHEESE in the middle =) unavailable in aussie unfortunately. i can't wait for her cheetos to arrive so that i can munch on them when i drop by her room on the nex CO prac. HAHA!

Tuesday, August 5, 2008

Shall update for my own convenience and to waste my own time.
Just went for a CO practice yesterday and i really enjoyed it even though the standards are not as high as the ones i used to have.
now i'm on youtube and listening to some CO songs like Gu Du Feng Qing and suddenly, i just wondered, wow...i remembered playing the song but i can't remember where i played it. Is it because i played too many songs that i can't remember where i played it or who i played it with? I thought situational cues will help me remember. But i really enjoyed those CO performances i used to have. I joined so many COs, seeking challenge, experience, skills and friends and i never regretted wasting so much time on my own little passion which can only stay at that limited level of competency due to personal limitations.
Now i'm in melb and i'm no longer in a chinese dominated culture. My little desire to immerse myself in the chinese music is rekindled and i really hope that i'll have a chance to keep in touch with the culture. I probably regretted not going for any csco practices last year during my working year. Now i understand the feeling of "appreciating something well when it's taken away from you and appreciating it more when u have the opportunity to possess it again"
While listening to the song Gu Du Feng Qing, i finally recalled playing this song with CSCO. I think i gained a significant amount of experience and fun while with that group whom i'm close to, but not so close to. I'm really afraid of going back and facing my teacher/conductor after "running" away from the orchestra. i really want to go back, even during last year. I just contacted Darrel, the kind senior who's always ready to help me, and apparently still remembers me through facebook. He introduced me to this new CO, chao feng CO, probably the only CO in melb.
Chao Feng reminds me of KBCCCO, which i joined when i was in sec 4. It was a CO full of passionate uncles and aunties and occasionally, some young ppl. We played really traditional CO songs and i guess the standard of the songs weren't enough to satisfy my desire for challenging ones. Now, chaofeng is the only CO and there's no way for me to move on and search for more experienced and skilled COs. It is full of young people, seemingly quite passionate. The only downside is that, there's insufficient people and lack of resources for us to play more challenging songs (aka modern CO songs). At this moment while i'm listening to CO songs through youtube, i just missed home, and missed the companion of my instrument, the chinese music and the company of people whom i had a lot of fun pitting my skills against.
qing shan obviously don't like my competitive nature. I'm just seeking fun out of playing together and pitting skills. I love playing in groups and i dun like solos. This is so that i can enjoy some socialising through an avenue known as chinese music. That's the reason why i don't pick on any downsides of the CO, i've no other options already. That's the only CO, if i don't join, there goes my passion. It's just like how i left my passion of manga back in singapore and i missed it a lot a lot too.
Does anyone understand that? Hopefully.

Friday, May 9, 2008

Xuetying just got a huge bunch of us hooked on to watching proposal daisakusen. I dunno the intensity of "hookness" each of us are... but i'm quite hooked to it. I think i quite like the story plot. it's kind of sweet but kind of lame... wad.. "hallelujah chance!" and must pose somemore. I used to not like yamapi because 1) i dunno who he is 2) everyone likes him. gladys whole dae yamapi yamapi... i can't rmb but izzit jaey? she oso yamapi yamapi... but flamez would be tamaki tamaki =D i like tamaki too! but it's the tamaki in ouran high school la... not the one in nodame
I seriously seriously think that yamapi resembles a lot like kimura takuya, as in the actions and their behaviour. i don't know, maybe it's just the character in proposal daisakusen. they don't really like to talk about their true feelings. Just that, yamapi is more lame and funny in this show la. oh well, maybe it's just the show, not the guy. I wanna continue watching soon!

hmm... my life hasn't been changing much though.
I went out with felicia to the city to meet the rest of the 75ers. Zhanpei, jaey, yaqi and daphne came! (they r the only ones anyway). we had dinner at mekong...this vietnamese restaurant. felicia and i shared the usual beef noodles because the soup is awesome. Then we talked a lot after dinner. I can't remember what we talked about but it was kind of sweet listening to zhanpei niao jaey the whole night. he was niao-ing jaey about her drinking during dinner. lol!

Then yea...yesterday there was Glenn ball and many people went. I didn't go la.. it's more expensive than prom. I was out after lessons at 3pm to do an interview and i couldn't rush back in time to see the super empty dining hall. Kind of disappointed but i guess i'm ok. I can always see it during june when there's really no one except internationals around. It's really quiet and nice and i could create any havoc i want in the corridoor. but well, my floormates were back rather early. I think many ppl had hangovers? hee... i'm not sure. then yea, at night, all of us just gathered in the davidson room to watch 2 episodes of proposal daisakusen. kinda missing gokusen... it's really funnie and there's oguri shun inside!! weee~~~

I don't know how to explain life now. I guess i'm being quite neutral towards everything and i'm just trying to relax my mind. I hope i'll keep it this way =)

And oh ya.. i realised, my penpal found my pics somewhere and obviously, he saw it. zzzzz... I haven't seen his. he probably found it on frenster or facebook ba... bleahhhh... i wanna see his picture too!

Thursday, May 1, 2008

Assignments piling...
Things to do piling...
Decisions to make piling...
Sianz...

I just feel like slacking everyday and watch fushigi yuugi/naruto everyday! There's still so many movies i haven't finished watching! There's so much shopping i wanna do too!! ahhhh!!

Shall find one fine morning to go to the city and do some rushed shopping for winter stuff =) I can't wait for end of june to come.

Just some updates:
Great Ocean Road was great!!! Beautiful Loch Ard Gorge, 12 Apostles, Bell's Beach, Apollo Bay, Lighthouse... wahhhhh!!! i wanna go again!
Footy... didn't get to watch live at the stadium but i watched from a tv outside a cafe. looks really exciting. Collingwood won essendon though... I think essendon was thrashed. Really liked the atmosphere in the stadium as part of the audience. well, went to watch Anzac day parade instead, but that's about it. Then toured around city aimlessly with the rest. There were 2 photos i took on tt dae that were really really hilarious. I was attempting to take myself and the background... then somehow, certain humans appeared at the back =.= with funny expressions =.= Getting those up on facebook soon.
Shopping trip with jaey. aiyo... spent so much on random stuff. lol... and the pancakes at the pancake place was simply fabulous!

ok la... not much happening these days too. getting emo and stoney tho. guess i'll b ok. MOVE ON MOVE ON!

Wednesday, April 9, 2008

A blatant attack on me. I shall retaliate!

Wednesday, March 12, 2008

I feeling so freaking confused now. One dilemma after another. what is this???

Test my independence!!

Thursday, February 21, 2008

First day In the morning, i just went to my maternal grandmother's house to bai nian. I collected quite a few Angbaos and met up with my cousins n relatives. I didn't really gorge on the new year goodies even though i was quite tempted to. I guess that was because the goodies were relatively "inaccessible" because of human blockages. I didn't help out during the preparation of lohei unlike wad i used to do. I just walked around n sat around n ate. i'm getting fatter!! I left there with well wishes from my relativesAfter which, i went to my paternal grandmother's house to bai nian. There were not much people there because we went there early. Eelin n Zhen still haven't reached. i met some of my cousins like weiliang gorgor n his gf, as well as lye yi jiejie and her family. when eelin n zhen arrived, i just hung around with them, like what i would usually do. zhongzhong gorgor came later. That big fat liar still refuses to tell me when he's going to get married. Stupid guy. Anyway, i played n chatted with him too. We meet only once a year la, so i wouldn't miss him that much. But i managed to kope his email! so hopefully, we can keep in constant contact? haha...
I rushed to the airport soon after all the bainian. My luggages weigh around 32.1kg in total and i was having trouble lugging all those heavy items around. 32.1kg doesn't include my lappie weight =.="' We had some problem checking in because the flight was full and the person couldn't allocated 3 seats that were together. So peiyueng was separated from us. After that, i just hung around with my relatives for a while. Eelin's family came to send me! hahaz... so nice of them... james n sam too. Then yea, my beloved classmates came too=) thanks to ck who also came. Bading them farewell was a difficult thing to do. I'll really miss them. No more outings with them until a year later.
After entering the departure hall, my hand-carry luggage was inspected. The officer discovered a pair of scissors in my stationery box. I was told to declare my scissors at the subsequent check. It was confiscated =( Fel, Py n i rushed in to the boarding gate as we were sort of late. I took the window seat while fel took the seat beside me. i was having trouble placing all my baggages around. I placed my hand-carry luggage on the top compartment, and the rest around my seat. I was sitting in a rather constrained place. Imagine that it's already SIA, which means that i have one of the widest seats.
I was kind of tired, so i didn't really watch any movies and i slept for a while. I had much trouble manoveuring around because the place was packed with my things and the front person moved back by quite a lot. My shoulders aren't aching that much now (3rd dae already) after sleeping in a constrained position for that few hours. Dinner/Supper was not bad to me. It was fried perch fillet and the texture resembles that of chicken. The icecream was replaced by authentic cheese cake. Fel ordered roast chicken and it was great too. Well, i'm a greedy pig. Any food is great/ok to me.
When we reached melbourne, it was just deja vu for me because i just came to melb 2 months ago. It was just a repetition of the processes. We waited quite long for our baggages and they were REALLY heavy when we tried to lug them off the belt. Luckily we managed. At the declaration counter where we declare our stuffs, i went through rather swiftly without having to open my luggage for checks. We found the airport reception in-charge rather quickly and proceeded to our school's college, Glenn.
At Glenn, i'm staying at first north. It's at the first level so i was rather worried about safety. I got really paranoid. Kevin, the international rep brought us around after we left our luggages in our room. We registered at the International Prog Office. After which, he familiarised us with the amenities nearby within the school campus. After which, we went to open a bank account n deposited our bank draft. We also bought similar pre-paid cards with local numbers so that we could call each other for free. However, smses were not free so we try to call rather than sms.
after settling some of the administrative stuffs, we just went back to our college n rooms. I started unpacking all my stuffs. Well, my room seems quite clean now. However, it's just really quiet now because the locals haven't really moved in. I'm quite worried that when they move in, it'll be rather noisy. I have the toilets n bathrooms to myself now. There's practically no one in first north other than the residential assistants, also known as RAs. During dinner, we had lamb meatballs (without pasta). I recalled visiting the spaghetti restaurant at marina square one dae for meatballs pasta n i tot the meatballs were really big. now, i've seen the king of meatballs. It's realy huge! 2 meatballs n we were practically full. We didn't even touch the carbs.
We went for some activity held in the college for the internationals. It's packed with people, mainly the mentors n RAs. I found myself suffering from culture shock. Apparently, they were "chilling out" at the gathering. It's filled with drinking, dancing n chatting. We managed to talk to a few more people during the gathering. however, i was still not used to just "chilling out" at such gatherings. I'm used to the childish way of playing games during gatherings. Oh well, i'll take some time to adjust i guess. Jet-lagged, we left soon after to go to bed. I really had nothing to do so i just went to bed rather early.
It's rather cold in melbourne now due to some freak blizzard. It's like 10+ deg every day n night. We need to go around with a sweater on. Temperature is supposed to increase. Stupid me slept on the quilt blanket that night and i was really FREEzing. I actually opened the windows. I woke up halfway to close the windows tight but still, the night was freezing. I'm really dumb.
on the 2nd dae, it's a saturday. After breakfast, all of us headed to the city since other than fel n i, the rest haven't really been to the city. So we brought them there on tram 86. We lagged quite a bit before heading on our journey. we tried buying metlink tickets on the tram but apparently, the tram was sort of faulty, so we couldn't get a single ticket. We looked around and decided to give up. Subsequent passengers also couldn't get their tickets on a tram. On the tram, it was a really tiring journey, probably because we were still jet-lagged i guess? most of us fell asleep on the tram. There were many shops along the road, but not many were open? or rather, were rather inactive. that's unlike a saturday in singapore where the shops would be bustling alreadi at about 11 plus. The key areas would be crowded with people alreadi. Oh well, culture shock again? We went past factory outlet stores and saw that we could buy quite a bit of clothes n shoes over at the shops.
We reached the city soon after passing by the FOS. We got down at Bourke St which i've walked by 2 months ago. It was, of course, the same. We walked around for a while before going for lunch at chinatown. We got into a chinese restaurant as it seems like it's the cheapest restaurant around. I had satay beef rice. It was... not spicy at all, had a tinge of satay sauce and the onions fried with the beef were rather raw. Oh well, what more could i expect?
After lunch, we just walked around for a while more and also headed to the shop which sells local/asian products. I found some of our favourite cup noodles.They were more ex than that in sg, like duhhz... but i just had to lay my hands on a few of them. I even found xia xiang ju! which is a herbal tea i used as a remedy for my illnesses or colds.
After that, we headed to Coles supermarket near our school as we thought that things would be cheaper there. and probably, we can find more stuffs. To our astonishment, the things were relatively expensive. We couldn't really find any decent thing to buy at the supermarket. Even the cup noodles were more expensive than the city asian shop. We really thought quite a bit before getting our stuffs.I bought some sweets and some cheap biscuits. I didn't have the heart to really buy something mroe expensive than 2 bucks. Oh goshhhhh....After that, i headed to Target and i found my electric kettle. Well, the pantry is really far from my room, and if i want nice n hot water, or a constant supply of water in my room, it's always better to get an electric kettle. Plus i didn't hav any water jugs to store water. I think i need one. Leaving water in the kettle isn't a great idea at all. I also bought some hangars.
Night was just another chilling out event held at chisholm college. There was a bbq and supposedly a game after that. We spent most of our time sitting around the grass patches. We found a fellow singaporean over at chisholm. So, as usual, the big group of us just sat around together and chatted for the whole while. I was tempted to participate in some of the random ball games ppl were playing. insufficient courage deterred me from doing so. A light drizzle came and we rushed into this lounge which has maps of the various countries everywhere. i just went around and talked to more people in the room. After that, fel, py n i went with our new sg fren to her chisholm room to take a look and lag around. She followed us back to our rooms later on.I was practically stoning again when i reached my own room. I didn't have anything to do at all. It has been quite...neutral/bad for me now. I'm missing home, but well, just mild, since i'm still in a holiday mode.
3rd dae was... a very slack dae. qing shan went to find their parents, so leaving py, fel n i to wait for xuetying to arrive. After brunch in the late morning, the canteen lady gave us some bread to feed the birds in the Moat. It was quite fun actually. Initially we thought there were too much bread for that few birds, but as we started to venture about, we realised that the bread may be insufficient. I found a couple of ducks or waterbirds nearby and i started to feed them. They just ate non-stop and snatched for food too. the way they "quack" is soooo cute. and the way they walk is even cuter =D
After that, we just walked around our college and found the sports centre. we went to the college office to wait for xuet as it was almost time for her to arrive. We were reading some news when xuetying arrived. with her was another sg guy doing nursing. we brought them to their rooms.
After that, i just lagged around in fel's room and we decided to explore the washing machine, dryer n iron. We were having a little trouble deciphering the information but it was ok. We dropped a few pieces in and left the washing machine to work. We also tried ironing, but the iron board is really irritating. We just gave up after a while.Next up was the dryer. i realised a constructive prob. one of my shirts cannot be tumbled dry. and the dryer takes really long to dry our clothes. So i have to hang my wet clothes somewhere!!! i can't hang them in my wardrobe because it'll like affect my dry n clean clothes? I made use of the hooks n rafia i brought and created a DIY pole to hang my towels and wet stuffs. It isn't stable so i just hang some of my lighter stuffs there.
Night was just dinner. nothing interesting.
Monday was just a series of talks in the morning and afternoon. We had free lunch. We also had a campus tour. My group consists of health sci students only. The tour leader was nicholas. he's a nice guy, as in he's really funny and entertaining. I met a few nursing students in my group. One of them is called keyong from malaysia. Yea, she feels like a fellow countrymen to me. We also met another singaporean in the group. i can't remember his name but yea, he's py's company in podiatry. Oh well, i found some of my company in nursing. There was a menzies college activity at night. It's some sort of skit presentation, where we have to utilise the words n props given. My group, i didn't noe anyone else except for chinatsu from chisholm college. 2 of us were staring at each other most of the time cos our group members (the locals) were busy talking n drinking among themselves. We were kind of lost and didn't noe wad to do or how to join their conversation. They only started planning the skit like later? ermz, we had use the words, groundwork, drongo and anzac, and the phrase, "he let fluff off the chain". I had no idea what those words meant. well, the others explained to us like later when the plot is almost out. We were given roles to play and yea... the plot seems funny. We only had one rehearsal and it was show-time. The various groups presented their ideas and i couldn't really understand some since they ended really quickly. as for my group? i was just laughing n laughing non-stop at my group member's acting. It was about this guy who farts a lot because he loves vegemite (some kind of fermented yeast). His problem troubled his gf, mother and frens (me n chinatsu). the skit was just a reporter reporting his condition. Well, it entertained the crowd and we won. the winning was great, but the entire skit planning experience was no exactly great for me. I was completely left out n isolated. I don't know how to join in.
Tues consists of talks again. Lunch was BBQ! the patties were humongous, and the sausages were not small. =.="' prepare to see a fat minnie back! We went to the library during the breaks to sort of like, use the express stations to email our friends. Well, they are the only comps that don't require any password. We still can't access our network =( We went Northland (a shopping centre) and shopped for some of our necessities like shampoo n shower n moisturizers. I don't usually use that but well, i guess it's better to protect my skin. I'm using the moisturizers Chuihan n Aishah gave me. At night, it was a Glenn College event. Well, i went to attend it. The games were kind of fun but they ended too quickly. It's this 2 men-3 legs game, and this icecream eating competition. In my team was faezah, gazza, my RA and a girl called hannah. I teamed up wif Gazza for the 2men-3legs game. He's like so strong??? he pulled me along even though we were not in sync initially. His footsteps were big and i could feel it and i was tryin to catch up with him by taking bigger steps. He's like leading me all along non-stop. I fell only after we reached the finishing line. LOL!! it was so funny... After that was the usual chilling out at airport lounge in Glenn. This time, i sort of garnered some courage to join in the dancing. Well, i was just swaying from left to right like what we do in mass dances while watching the others show off their moves. PY n xuet left with faezah n the chisholm gang. They went to watch movies while Yoon-a accompanied me there. I was like sticking to Yoon-a most of the time. Before the event, i was watching Friends in her room. Friends was HILARIOUS!!! When we got out of the dancing group, there's this guy who noticed the 2 of us standing by the side. He invited us in and we were like, "i can't dance..." but he's really nice. He told us that he doesn't noe either n well, just dance the way we like? haha.. So we got in again. Then there's this time when they started dancing some sort of mass dance to a song n macerena. It was great!! i was sort of feeling nostalgic, after being reminded of the times i had in hwachong during those mass dances. The feeling was awesome. I went to Yoon-a's room to watch Friends again later till late at night. Qing (who's Yoon-a's flatmate) walked me back to my room n we kind of gossipped.
Wed...ermm.. liddat lor? hahaz..There was an interesting talk known as OZ english. We learnt some aussie slang and how some words are being utilised in different situations. Well... we know "bloody" rite? There's others but i guess i'll forget it soon. Their casual speech is completely incomprehensible =.="' We wanted to go to the city actually, but all the lagging prevented us from doing so since the shops close really early over there. So we just went to the library. I spent my entire time allowance replying mx's mail and taking their online driving test with Qing. Lol...we passed. It's quite cold for the whole time. The temp ranged between 14 - 20deg. We've heard from ppl that temperature is increasing but apparently, it's still not showing any changes. Feb is like, midway through and there's no changes in temp? Autumn's coming!! omgg....At night, there's supposed to be some movie night at Chisholm College but Kate (my RA) invited me to help her out with the decos at my level. So i guess i'm ponning that event. Well, i didn't really help. I was just following her around. They were done with certain things by the time i got there. Kate then brought me out to this store called Officeworks where they sell all sorts of stationery. Drew (fel's RA) drove us there. He's really fast =.= I just tagged around in the shop while they bought their things. the stationery there are at killer prices. We then went to the macs outside the school. There's like so many youngsters gathered there and they sort of, looked scary to me? cos they were like hanging out n smoking. Felt lonely as i waited for them... attempted to talk to Kate but i guess there wasn't much for us to share about yet. I was supposed to join her later for pizza or sth? but well, i got away rather quickly. I'm getting fat!! It's like, kind of awkward for me now to hanging around the RAs at that time. I went to find the rest. Some (who went Chisholm for the movie earlier) of them were also at the same place. We watched Harry potter on py's lappie. Lol... Beats watching at the movie night.
It's Valentine's Day at the time when i was typing day 3 so... Happy Valentine's Day peeps!
I can't remember what i did on vdae =.= Todae's like 19 Feb already. Haven't been spending the effort to record down what i did. Vdae is full of a series of talks and a library tour. Well, we already know the express stations at the library and during the tour, we found more=) Unlike in sg, vdae isn't much celebrated here? I don't see anyone exchanging anything. We went Preston Market during late afternoon. That place is very big and i managed to get my tupperwares from there. Finally, my bikkies have a home!
Friday, is a series of talks again. I think it was a rather slack day. It was the night that was slightly more interesting? PY, xuet and i went to the eagle bar to take a look there. Most of the people there were either drinking, chilling out or playing pool. We managed to find the Chisholm peeps there and started chilling out with them. I think Chisholm college had some sort of Toga party for that night and they started "barging" into the bar and danced with their togas. It was interesting seeing so many ppl dancing in bed linen =D Then they did the aussie mass dance again! hahaz... yoon-a n i joined the rest on the stage for that dance. it was really cool... we went off with the chisholm people to some dark area to star gaze n play those lame hand games. We also taught them some action songs. I think that's when xuet's scandal with Sumi (this cute jap guy) started. Sumi is really smart and he taught me how to see the constellation orion as well as showed us Mars.
Saturday we went Vic market with the Chisholm people and Leon. Vic market has sooo many things. That little time isn't enough for us. I bought this jacket supposedly to tide me through winter and also another pullover-lookalike. We got it at really cheap prices. I think i may get more. Summer's like getting hot now and i wun be using those jackets yet. Then we travelled to Ikea. The Chisholm ppl went to buy things. The Glenn people wanted to catch dinner, so when we reached Ikea, we turned back and went back to college.
Sunday we travelled to city again where the Yarra river is. We also went to Crown Entertainment Centre. It's really scorching hot, as in the weather. There was some sort of arts festival next to the Yarra at Southgate. There were also many street performances. At night, it was the Traffic Party. actually, in the afternoon, most locals started moving in so i got to see some of my neighbours already. There was orientation and level gathering. The things we do during orientation is really plain. Not really self-introductory. It was more like the organisers enjoying themselves. As for the level gathering, it was more interesting as i got to meet up with my other level mates. There's no other internationals other than Chris, this guy from UK. I sat around and listened to the other girls talk. That's when they started doing the lay-back. Everyone was rather spontaneous and enthusiastic. Guys n girls went one after another. Well, they drink. It was almost when everyone went when Chris (who sat beside me) volunteered me. All along i was hesitating even tho Chris kept encouraging me to go. Well, didn't want to be a wet blanket, so i went. Lay-back's like, lying on your back while someone pours alcohol into your mouth and u have to swallow without closing your mouth, non-stop of course. The drink was rather nice and the alochol content is low. After lay-back, i was feeling hot all over. I think that's when i became kind of crazy. I went to the Traffic Party with the rest. Most of the sg ppl left after a while. I stayed with Yuki (this jap girl who just moved in) and Yoon-a. They bought beer and fruit spirits and i drank from their cups. Being a stingy person, i can't really bear to spend that money >.< We then danced around at the dance floor with various groups of people. The sg ppl came back after some time, apparently chased away from the TV room by Gazza who felt that they were anti-social. I think some of them were rather hurt by the things Gazza said. That was because there were "newbies" in that group. I wasn't there so i didn't hear. That's when xuet n nicholas (this guy frm m'sia who juz moved in) joined the dancing gang. The songs were getting less interesting unlike those we had at the start. So we went to chill in the chillout room. Zac (this international frm msia who stayed at Glenn for some time alreadi) was really nice. He got drinks for the few of us. I was kind of entertaining the rest with my lame jokes. That enthu zac dragged us back to the dance floor but the party was soon over... whew... A few of us who were together in the chillout room then went out to "star-gaze" again. I think some drunk guys tried to force us back into the party which was later held at the recreation room. We didn't really care. I went to hang out in my neighbour's room later when the rest went to sleep. There were a few locals there and they spoke in casual language. I couldn't understand a single word they say so i couldn't really contribute. I was just sitting at the side and attempting to listen to their conversation. omg... i think language is gonna be a huge barrier between me n them. Culture is also one.
Monday, we had enrolment. It took really some time for us in the nursing group cos we had the highest population. Then we went to take photo for our student ID card. I think the station i went has the best webcam because the resolution that came out was the best. Erm... well, the pic didn't come out exactly great cos my expression was retarded. Night was beach party which i didn't join. I think it's kinda scary. It's like, people started stripping during the Traffic party already. i think it's gonna be worse during the beach party. We went to watch Nutty Professor in one of the TV rooms. I think the rest were watching that on sunday when they got chased out. Well, there wasn't much prob finishing the show this day because most of the people came out from the party halfway. I think it got really crazy?
Tues (which is today), there wasn't much on. so after breakfast, i was so tired i slept while doing laundry and woke up halfway to collect my laundry. Then i continued sleeping till 4pm before i went to the library to reply some mails and went for dinner. After dinner, there was supposed to be pub crawling. I didn't go cos someone said that there'll be plenty of drinking and it's a waste of money. Pub-crawl is like, pub hopping where people go from pub to pub to drink. So sian...Everyone's dressed in party dresses. Initially, i thought of going. after seeing their dresses, i didn't go. I went for the movie night instead. There were mostly the sg ppl, yuki n 2 other locals frm my level. We watched enchanted and some random videos. ok...that's all for 19 Feb. It's really noisy outside my door now and people are chatting away n slamming doors and jumping around. haiiiz...noisy... and i just battled a damn cockroach in my room. Adult one. and it lost. I threw my slippers at it. Omg... i'm freaking out now. my power slippers hit it so many times and it still isn't dead. ARGHHHHhhhz....

Wednesday, January 23, 2008

Haven't blogged in ages... like 2 months? I'm the suddenly active, and den followed by a long season of silence type of blogger. To people who are not aware,

1) i'm not working already. heehee... i'll miss my nice nice colleagues who showered me with a lot presents which i'm bringing with me to aussie. haha.. they oso enlightened me with a lot of tips on how to keep myself young with all those preservatives. well, weather is drier in aussie. I need to protect my skin n hair so that i wun turn old so soon. hmmz... I'd be meeting them this coming friday at royal plaza Carousel! looking forward to meeting them, and getting my shawl from chuihan who made it for me. It's a gorgeous shawl. And yes! carousel...the food... ohhhh...

2) i passed my driving test last year. haha... sounds so long ago. Nowadays, i keep driving my dad's car. I made a lot of fatal mistakes in the beginning because i wasn't used to the car n the roads. It's not like the test routes where u can memorise the road conditions. it's getting slightly better now. oh well...my father always say, "i feel safer with me around while u r driving rather than u driving alone in aussie." haha. it's true...

3) I'm leaving aussie in about 2 weeks' plus time! Doing lots of packing and buying of stuffs. I'm afraid that i'll exceed the weight limit. Well, i dun really wan to pay more for my luggage. Wanted to bring a lot of things but it seems that i can't afford it. Y is the airline so rigid about this... can't they just pardon a few poor students who want to bring more things along? hai...

4) i'm mapling everyday. oh gosh... i'm so addicted. "oh... 2weeks left, must play more" is such a nice excuse for myself to play it every night. Made quite a few "frens" in maple. I trained a new sin other than my lightning mage. Don't have much time to train it. i splurged quite a bit of "money" on my sin. I bought quite a sets of pro throwing stars for that noob sin. but rich noob sins have steely =.= i only have tobi... lol!

Ok... that's a real summarised version of updates. GG!

~ i'll miss u =( and i'll regret not having more communication with u. but what can i do? just so impossible. i don't know ~