Do i consider jc life redundant?
I had a short little conversation with bun just now. When i revealed to him the course i aspire to take, he was rather "shocked" or in his words, "stunned". Then he asked me why i did not choose to apply to NYP 2 years ago and wasted 2 years of my life. The subjects I take in JC may or may not prove useful in helping me understand what i will be learning. Well, the grades i get may prove my academic level among the rest, but will the knowledge i gained help me through my learning process?
This conversation triggered a train of thoughts. Wouldn't secondary school be redundant too? The things we learnt in secondary school are considered basic when compared to what we are learning in JC. Did the knowledge i gained then help me understand advanced concepts? Not really or to a small extent. At times, teachers tell us, "what you've learnt in secondary school is too simple and would not be applicable for advanced questions" We have to start learning a whole lot of concepts again. Wouldn't it be better if we went directly into the difficult concepts since secondary school? Then we would not have to struggle trying to understand content which we've never touched before in a short span on 2 years.
On the other hand, imagine the amount of stress that we have to handle at that tender age just trying to understand certain theories or logics in order to score well. Our brains may not have developed fully for us to comprehend those concepts.
I'm contradicting myself. Was going a jc a right choice? Perhaps jc serves as a stepping stone on my way to university. It gives me extra time to consider what paths i may be taking. This period of time allows me discover and analyse the paths most suitable for me. I guess, the reason why i went to JC is because i haven't decided on what roads to take when i was in sec 4. Perhaps, the other reason is because it's the "common way" to walk. although the thought of going poly after sec4 such that i could step into society early has crossed my mind, i didn't think further.
I enjoyed my jc life though. I met lots of nice people. My classmates, my teachers, my cca mates and other friends. I don't regret entering jc.

sometimes i feel that they are just not concerned enough. Sometimes i feel that they are overly concerned. Sometimes i feel irritated at them for interrupting my chain of thoughts. Sometimes i feel lonely because they are not concerned about what i'm thinking. i'm a person full of contradictions.

Decision-making is such a difficult process! How many decisions must we make on average a day? Hundreds. The decisions we make each day may be significant or insignificant, depending on how much they affect our future or lives.
Each day, my dad has to decide what my family will be having for breakfast the next day. He has to consider various factors. Firstly, the price of bread. In addition, our personal preferences, the nutritional value of that flavour of bread and quantity affect the decisions he makes. It's only a simple act of buying bread, but it incorporates decision-making.
Other not-so-significant decisions we make daily includes whether to turn left or right when we are at a road junction, which road to take such that i'd require the least time to reach my destination and so on.
Significant decisions we make include which universities to apply to, which courses we might be taking and the list goes on. They are significant because they affect the next few years of our lives, or on a greater scale, our future. They require serious thinking and more analysis as compared to those not-so-significant decisions due to the greater impact they have. A wrong decision made can either affect our lives drastically or we could run away from the consequences depending on luck.
Thinking about this... I believe that every decision i make every second leads me to a different path of life. I believe that an act i decided to perform at a point of time affects the path i'll be taking in the next few seconds or even my entire life! Seems illogical...
Well, knowing how difficult it is to make a decision, i've tried to reduce my pa's responsibility to decide on my meals he's in charge of buying home. Each time he asks for my choice of dinner, i'll readily give him my reply, such that he could make one less decision.
The act of saying "anything" may simply imply that one's not choosy or picky, but it intensifies the burden the other party is carrying.
Hopefully, this act of mine can help reduce my pa's burden =D

~Maybe i was just hesitating. I should be true to myself but i can't bring myself to. Perhaps i'm one living in self-denial...~

I had quite a fun day today i guess... First, it was phototaking. Well, i felt sort of nostalgic when i put on my stnicks uniform. I felt that i grew fatter, and i missed my times in stnicks. To think that mx and i are laughing about what we did in the past. Our skirts always remain long because we use our skirts to "cover up" when we sit in a rather "exposed" manner in our school. We can't do that in HC now because the skirt is too short!! not enough to cover... At the end of the phototaking session (we took quite a few nice photos), mx, karin and i simply thought that since we are in our sec sch uniforms, we might as well take a few more photos. We took quite a few "act cute" photos... but i won't post here...for privacy's sake.

Then during break, we had chocolate cake!! nice... but i got a sore throat later =( i drank lots of water but apparently, that didn't help.
And yes...darling!! hope you loved your surprise... hahaz... that was mx's idea though... don't judge her by her size, she can do big things!! i had a hard time lying to you though... mx, fel, jaey and i bought a miniature cake, strawberry-flavoured and heart-shaped for darling. we surprised her after the class celebrated for the aug babies! hahaz...and was she surprised? according to her blog...yes =D i'm glad you had a nice day...

Lastly, the surprise for mx on her bdae! After jaey's well-planned surprise, we had to plan a new one for mx. Running out of ideas, i decided to employ the method we used to encourage our seniors. Formulating a full message for her, we divided the message into 3 parts and each of us (fel, jaey and i) sent one each. according to mx, it was because jaey's sms that lagged that she got a surprise. My sms which went first, appeared broken and incomplete and she was about to reply me when she got jaey's which happened to be the next part of the message. After jaey's, she received fel's! perfect timing ehhh... =D

Surprises are nice because they bring happiness to people (i hope?) now...i have to think of ideas for fel's bdae!! arghhhhz....

Got hooked on to songs by True Kiss Destination because of Naomi Sensei!! Their songs are quite unique (???) one of their songs starts with cannon in D, then somehow, they managed to compose a song based on cannon in D. (do i make sense?) oh whatever...i like their songs...

Hmmmz.... i still want norika's hairstyle...

I want fujiwara norika's hairstyle!! she has maintained this hairstyle of hers throughout her career life.. i want it too!! If i look this chio with her hairstyle, then w00ts!

Tonight is the first night i am online this early....8.42pm... i think i'm simply too tired. After reaching home from school, i started watching "NAOMI" starring the above babe. Somehow, my parents also started watching with me despite that show being a school-life type of show. You know, it's the female version of GTO simply. Just that, norika don't smoke in the show but she's still cool. That show of hers isn't well-known but i still like it a lot. Funny yet serious at times.

Somehow, i managed to find certain parallels in today's society in this show. Perhaps children are just increasingly difficult to understand nowadays. Maybe, only teachers like Naomi, who isn't afraid of anything may be able to understand students better by exploring(or rather, enter by force) their internal world. Something plausible stated in the show, or depicted, is that when Naomi was given the records of her form class' students, she simply dumped them away. "I'd prefer to judge them from how i see them. Those records are how people judged them, i don't need them." I admire her. However, such daring attitudes of her are simply not applicable in today's society i guess. In a nutshell, it's only a show meant for entertainment.

w00ts...it's 12am and here i am, typing in front of the computer. I have nothing to say. I'm sadded =(

The Chinooks and Apaches on National Day were very cool!! If only my eyesight hasn't deteriorated that much, i MIGHT have a small little chance to at least fly a small aeroplane. What's done cannot be undone though, unless i go for a Lasik operation, which i'm most reluctant to. AHhhz....at LEAST, i still have the chance to drive a boat since eyesight isn't an important criteria here. You know...those motor boats... All i need is time to try them out. One fine day, i asked my pa, "can i obtain a licence for riding motorcycles?" He said, "You can, but don't try to ride one on singapore roads. It's extremely dangerous and the disadvantages outweigh the advantages." This i agree. Considering the number of road bullies, i can't help but sigh.
Until now, i'm still mesmerized by the sight of F-16s and Chinooks. If only i went on the F16 during the Airbase openhouse...Regret ah regret...
Other than the flying machines, nothing else really attracted me in the whole National Day Parade. The mood was not there because i watched it at home. next year, i shall fight for the tickets!!

bun: if you see this, i wanna tell u....you sucks!!! LOL!!!

Feeling extremely lethargic now... but i shall finish typing this entry....
Took 156 home alone =( everyone stayed back in school to mug and this is scary!!! mugger mode hur... Met one of the Wahs at the bus stop and i didn't know who he was, so i simply didn't bother to greet? what a mean senior eh... but i seriously had no idea which one he was. It was until he got off the bus then i knew that he was wahtoon. =.=

twins are so difficult to differentiate. Qing Shan too... For the first year, i had a terrible time differentiating the two of them. Getting their names right had a probability of 0.5. I still remember the first time we met, when two half-crazy stnicks girls ran over to me while i was waiting outside a classroom at MOELC, only to know that we'll be classmates and we'll be in the same CCA. Never did we know at the moment of time, that our relationship can progress so much. After one year, i managed to differentiate the two of them, by character, by face and by voice. I'll know who's speaking over the phone whenever either one called. Orhhh... i miss them...

Another pair i know was in the same pri 6 class as me. I sat with one. They look different the first moment i see them and i could easily differentiate the two of them. They fight in class perpetually. I'm not sure about now, but i guess they still fight. At least, i won't see them fighting in school cos they are finally in different JCs. One's in s7C and the other's in RJC.

I met quite a few ex-pri classmates at the bus stop and on the bus. I met Fongyi at the bus stop but apparently, he don't recognise me already. Then i met dwayne on the bus but obviously, he doesn't recognise me either. did i really change so much or did we just fail to acknowledge each other despite knowing the existence of each other? It's quite sad, having lost contact with most of my pri sch classmates. As for secondary school, since i was never close to the rest other than a few for my entire 4 years, it's not surprising that i no longer keep in contact with them. Perhaps occasional chats and so on.

I find it quite pathetic, that i'm no longer that spontaneous (i'm not a radioactive substance). Seeing people i know, i fail to acknowledge or even "recognise" them, so to say. Despite seeing that "friend" everyday in school, it's like... the feel is like... or rather, the thought in my mind was... "i know you. i wanna sae hello to you. but should i say? do you still remember me? if you don't, i'll feel extremely disappointed. if you do, i'll be very happy. So, do you still remember me?" Perhaps i'm just pathetic... i must learn to initiate more i think. At least, i can salvage a few disappearing friendships? hopefully.

Looks like i'm in a blogging mood? After abandoning my blog for like, 1 month or so, the owner is finally back! Am i? It's sunday, at 10am, and i'm right before my computer, exercising my fingers. I just read an article on Lifestyle. Oh, and the statement that caught my attention was (right at the front page), " There are an estimated 50 million blogs out there in cyberspace now, and everyone one of these bloggers has this aim: Read me. I want to be famous. The Age of Narcissism is well and truly upon us, but how healthy is it?" I beg to differ. That's an over-generalisation excuse me. I blog, but i don't aim to be famous and I don't post pictures of myself acting cute before the camera. I thought newspapers are supposed to publish things from an objective view. What's with all those articles which express bias against women (for watching soccer and screaming because we are naturally wired with a voice that has a higher pitch than men) and of course, branding all bloggers as narcissistic. Bleahhhz~

Hmmz...I finally have the chance to blog. On friday, i arrived home at around 12. I had the sudden urge to blog about something, but my brother, as usual, was hogging the computer. I had no choice but to not fight with him for the computer. I was feeling rather lethargic too after one week of activities and a day filled with fun. And on saturday, after my grandma's birthday, we arrived home at around 11.30pm. I REACHED the com first, but he opened his mouth first. "hey, i wanna use the com." Ahhhh, my turn to use the com is gone. If i don't do anything for an hour while waiting for the com, i'll probably fall asleep, so i might as well, "study art" and sleep.
So, what a nice morning, and i'm here blogging at peace. No fighting, no urge to sleep, perfect condition to blog.

Friday:
school time is boring, i have nothing to blog about it. After school, i stayed at the class bench to do some work. No one was there to accompany me, except a few juniors whom i didn't really talk to them. So I just listened to music... Felicia came to find me later and we ended up chatting at my class bench. No juniors or seniors were present at the class bench. So i called Libo to join us at my class bench after he was left alone by his friend. After which, Ahpek joined us while he was looking for royston. We waved like madmen trying to catch Ahpek's attention. Ahpek is simply so dao!! can't stand him... all of us just sat around and chat. Royston came, followed by zhixuan and ningfei. CO-peeps-filled bench hur~~~

We tooked 1hr plus to reach SAFRA (tampines). I've passed by it like countless times but have never walked into it before. Not bad lar... I prefer the Mount Faber's one.

PARTY Time! I met all my juniors and whoa...i miss them! despite seeing them in school almost everyday, but there wasn't a chance when we could gather together and lame together. The activities were rather =.= We used those games to sabotage people...lol...
I miss my darling Sut Yee! the junior i miss most (not being biased, but she's from stnicks) Hung around with her for most of the day and took quite a few pics. I took quite a lot of pics lar... with my brothers and sisters... hmmz... i have a lot...

How to sae lehz, there's plenty of ups and downs in my CO life. I faced depression and happiness in that 1.5years and i saw a batch leaving, and another batch coming in. I like the senior batch, but i like the junior batch too. I had my share of fun with both batches but i guess, i had more "lame times" with the senior batch. Perhaps it's cos we have more activities together. Last year we had more concerts as compared to this year. What name-exchanging games and MRT and sleepover... i really miss them... As for this year, i probably had fun torturing my juniors ( as usual... i'm a big-junior bully) I also met a few nice batchmates. Although i didn't manage to interact deep enough with some of them, but at least, we've made our existence known to each other and progressed to hi-bye friends. As for the rest, i'm really glad i've made a few more mutual friends. Of course, we gossip about CO's bgr =D I've regretted before regarding joining Hcco. but i still persisted, and it ended happily. Quote from zhengyou, "why is everyone so happy during farewell?" Erm, i would rather see smiles rather than sad faces and tears. Smiles indicate that everyone's happy, not that CO-life has ended, but cos all of us enjoyed our day and enjoyed our time in CO. As we reflect upon those days, we feel happy rather than sad. Happiness dominates over sadness. Sadness indicates regrets. Of course, we don't feel happy parting with our dear juniors.

Saturday:
Went to the seminar. The speaker from UK is soooo lame!! "tilt your head to the side, smile, and tilt back! you'll look as if you are exhilarated!" oh manz!!! =D=D Although the speaker didn't really provide us with any details regarding UK uni application stuff, but i guess, his talk really kept me awake. The food at the reception was extremely good =D there's tempura, yakitori, xiaolongbao, coffee cakes, and tuna sandwiches! My lunch was really good...
After the break, we went back for the talk by jeffrey goh. OH. HE'S A SUPERB SPEAKER I TELL YOU. although i didn't really catch most of his tips for choosing a scholarship, his stories are EXTREMELY GOOD! inspiring? i guess so...

The cow and pig are two animals living in a farm. However, humans favour the cow more than the pig. One day, the pig ask the cow, "Mr Cow, why do humans like you more?"
The cow answered, " cos i provide cheese and milk?"
the pig replied, " but i provide ham and bacon and luncheon meat too! So why do humans like you more?"
The cow thought for a while....and he finally arrived at an answer!! "I know!! it's cos i provide while i'm still alive and you provide while you are dead!!"
Moral of the story: Give while you are still alive.

That's the story from Mr jeffrey. He gave more stories, personal or fables. The way he speaks, is simply entertaining. He filled the hall with laughters, non-stop i guess. I was never bored for the whole 1.75 hours. In fact, i was sort of looking forward to more humours from him. He's a good speaker definitely, but i don't really know how much i was inspired that day with regards to scholarship stuffs. But daily stuffs, i'm certainly inspired! I'm glad i stayed for the talk.

After which, i went shopping with jaey and mx. quote: "OMG!! minnie is actually willing to shop with us!!" >.< And anyway, whenever i go shopping with jaey, i'll always end up buying some feminine stuff. Siann... nex time cannot go out with her... It'll spoil my image.

Then i rushed over to my grandma's bdae dinner at east coast. Jumbo was crowded and apparently, the manager gave our tables away to other people because they didn't want to wait for us (cos we were late, with 2 cars stuck in a traffic jam) My father, despite taking a much longer route to fetch me after fetching my grandma, arrived much earlier. The manager allocated 3 separated tables for us. It's a family dinner!! and you expect us to sit at 3 tables away from each other. How nice... Initially, my mum relented and gave in to the allocation, but i simply wasn't too happy about this. so i whispered to her and she shouted my wish out like, "YOU WANT THE TABLES TO BE TOGETHER HAR?" and the manager reallocated our tables. OH freak. no wonder i dun tell my mum secrets, cos she blurts everything out. i was extremely embarrassed and pissed, so i went to find my father who was waiting for the rest at the carpark. It's like, something private, and she had to tell the whole world about it. didn't she know why i kept my voice low and whispered to her ear? Oh freak... And it's not the first time. I really can't stand it. I think my gossip nature came from her, but at least i know when to keep things secret and when not to most of the time without embarrassing anyone. Siann!
The dinner ended very smoothly after that. And for the first time in my life, i don't feel "off" sitting with my cousins because of the clothes we wear... but my aunts were still quite amazed when they saw me wearing a skirt....>.<

This feeling, hidden within me, appeared once again after it hid itself. You've given me hope, yet denied me of hope. I've decided to forget, but i couldn't because i wasn't given the chance to do so. I hope to do so after today, but can I? Can you simply deny me of all hopes such that i can give up at ease? I hope so...

I was simply too bored while i was online. So i resorted to searching for games in the computer. My bro juz installed Need for Speed Underground 2, so i went to try out the game. I played the oldest version of Need for Speed before, and got hooked on to it. So now, i'm trying to see whether NFS Underground 2 will be good. Hmmz... there's so many game types, which includes game league, drifting, loop and so on. Forget about drifting...all i noe is...u muz apply the brakes. So while i was racing (the normal type), i tried applying brakes at a turn and i simply failed to drift. In fact, my car stopped and at the time it stopped sliding, it was in the opposite direction >.< no talent at using keyboard to drift... Well... i'm not using that game to PRACTISE my driving skills of course (no worries). I'll probably end up in jail very soon...

Oh yes!! i was surfing the web when i came across "dear boys". ARghhhz...i'm so disappointed. the anime is horrible in terms of art, or rather, i'm too used to the manga style hence i wasn't too used to the anime art style. Aikawa looked totally different. He lost the seriousness and kawaii-ness that exist only in the manga. the anime is extremely expensive too. It is totally not appealing. I prefer the manga... content is comprehensive, the guys are much more good-looking, and the art is more refined and sophisticated. In terms of body proportions, although there exist some problems with regards to the female body, but it's considered acceptable since it's a manga. I watched dear boys grow from act 1 to act 2 and the guys grow from kids to mature guys. AHhhhhz =D

It's sad that the internet lacks dearboys pics and wallpapers. Perhaps the content isn't as appealing when compared to slam dunk, or simply slam dunk came as a bang. the storyline is quite nice though. It's not purely about skills or techniques, just a simple story of an ambitious guy, which incorporates romance. lol... Dearboys... plenty of competitions and each competition is sooo detailed, i'll probably take until age 21 to finish collecting the entire series. but anyway, the ending to each competition (yet to be published) is predictable =.= causing the story to lose some kick in it. i'm waiting for the finals of the whole basketball competition!!! i wanna noe which team wins... aikawa against masato!!! two of my favourite characters...w00tS!!


Aikawa!!

Hi...welcome to moi new blog... just wanted a change of name... lol... sick of bluemapleleaves alreadi, hence the change. Just went Island Creamery... Ahhh... the apple pie ice cream was not bad. I love the bread crumbs but i simply did not lyke the cinnamon in the ice cream. It kept dripping too...=( but anyway, the scoop was large for a price of 2.50. Aiya, it was a treat from ty...lol... thanks neway... wanted to try the chendol or tiger beer flavour but chendol wasn't available and tiger beer, i didn't dare to try cos i was afraid it might make me drowsy or something. Lol... anyway, the variety there is quite interesting though i wouldn't mind rum and raisin.

We spent quite some time lagging there before taking a photo. The photo is chao nice!! 5 girls and a guy (do u consider ty a guy?) Lol... fortunately we could take a nice photo and print it out on the spot. lalala~
After that, went back to sch for maths ppr =(

What a siann day... Thanks to the bio test, everyone's lyke reading or studying the bio notes these few days. Wah stressed lar...it seems as if i'm lagging by a lot and yet it seems that my pace is still moderate and not too slow. Considering thursday's long dae... omg... i'm thinkin whether i have the energy to sustain throughout the entire dae, including the hours of revision after chem S ppr...

Lol sheeesh...i think i'm at expert at editing blog templates.... have been doing quite a few template and i alter practically the same things each time. It's quite easily once i'm used to it but i know only the few basic commands or html stuffs. If i have the time, i shall find a nicer blog template. the current template is from sister princess...(if u noe wad anime that is....)

And for maths S lecture todae... chao funnie!!! The lecturer told us that someone complained that she went too slow. Hence she decided to go much faster this time. WHOA!! and she really went at rocket speed!! in like, less than 20mins or so, she finished going through the tutorial questions... After which, we had our usual exercise question. She said, " i shall give you some time to do..." i started reading the question and tryin to comprehend it. When i started plotting out the points (it was a vectors question), she flashed the answer alreadi... lol... of course, i didn't do the question and copied the solution instead. the "some time" is lyke...5mins only...lol...obviously not enough for me!! i need lyke 10mins or so to understand and think through a question and 20mins or so to work it out. As for the subsequent parts, the answers all came out before i could finish reading... =.= She's uber fast this time!! too fast... and we were dismissed at 6.30pm. LOL!! cool~~~ She's veri funnie too... =D

wad am i thinking about? what do you call this type of feeling... it's explainable, but i dun wish to understand it. The feeling of yearning for something, yet knowing i'll be unable to obtain it. The feeling of it being owned by someone, yet discarded by the person. Sadded? i'm not sure. I just don't wish to sink into this feeling any further...

testing, testing...