My new haircut

I had my haircut at Supercuts again. Well, it's definitely expensive but i just want to have a decent haircut that i wouldn't regret. Sometimes, it's "worth" paying that much paying for a haircut that i won't regret.

The service there is really good. First they ask u whether u wan a drink or stuff. Then they bring magazines over for you. Then they'll ask you to wait, in a patient manner. Quite nice =)

Then i got a hairwash. omg... i dunno why, but i just don't like the idea of guys touching my hair. I'm very sorry to that guy, but i was having goosebumps when he washed my hair. worse off, he started massaging the neck area and omg, it was hell for me. y?? BECAUSE, it's the most ticklish body part of mine. I was totally struggling not to laugh, and not to present my reflex actions (which is to punch the person touching my neck). Oh well, i finally had my hair properly washed =D

Then i got my haircut. My hairdresser is a very nice lady and i got to chat with her while i got my haircut. I didn't really tell her what I wanted and she was very patient with me. I let her decide wad she wants to do with my hair. I just told her that i want it shorter. I like my new hairstyle =) at least, it's not something i'll regret like in the past. Maybe cos my hair is longer and even if the style is ugly i can easily get rid of it.

It's a nice haircut experience. I don't like my haircut to be rushed through. I like it slow. This whole haircut took me 2 hrs in total and I really enjoyed it. weee~~

Time passes really quickly and in less than 2 weeks, i'll be embarking on my journey to melb once again.
I just found out about my new college room. Tower 12BE. According to the experienced, it's away from the kitchen and the rest really admired me for having that room. To me, having my room away from the kitchen is the best thing i can have for a new room=) Less noise =)) Well, im on toto's floor, which means I'm gonna be his neighbour! Free thai culinary lessons =D Oh yea, and Eshan is my RA! I think that sounds really really really good. I bet Eshan's gonna be a fun RA.

then again, I'm gonna miss my family and relatives in Singapore. I'll miss my dear friends and buddies in singapore. ahma ar... emmie ar...mx ar... so sad =( I can only see you guys like after 11 months once again. Really gonna miss u guys but when u guys are free, remember to chat with me through msn k?
Another group of people im gonna miss are my maple friends. Well, they're just a bunch of virtual friends to others. To me, they are a new group of friends i just made. Aged between 17 - 23, we are probably the more mature bunch of people who are always caught pqing together. Well, pqing with strangers is rather horrible because u nv know whether these people are potential slackers/irritants. Pqing wif a group of friends u already, and trust, means ur pq experience will always be nice and warm. That's true! haha... the few of us really have lotsa fun together, either chatting, gossipping or bullying each other. My dear blahh, yoshie, xammie, barnie, frostie, keepsie, karlie, zephie, yeanie, dexxie, snowie, cheekie... gonna miss u all lots lots lots!! not to forget my non-pq/maple-chatterbox frens char, boiboi, slim... Awwwww...

Todae's Vdae! and poor bachelorettes like me hibernate at home =P LOL!! feels kinda sad without a partner, but then again, wad to do? Live with it =) I feel mroe sad when on such a dae, u noe ur girl friends are definitely not with you. Oh well, I'm a girl too. Can't expect another girl to be with me on such a special male-female day =P unless im a l3s 0.o'''

Alright, muacks to all my dear friends and family! smoochies (>3<)

Pri sch class gathering!

I forgot to update about this once in a decade gathering on last saturday.
It has been almost 10 years since we knew each other in 5A2, HIPS. We finally arranged a class gathering after such a long period of time.
I should sae, we must thank facebook for bringing us all together. I think facebook has made it easier for us to contact each other and arrange an event. Thanks to shawnlau and zehou who took the initiative to organise this event after some of us suggested meeting up.
It was a bbq, and a session full of memory recollections. It was quite interesting to bring up all sorts of childhood memories during our classes and certain never-heard-of gossips. Still remember who our teachers in pri class, and how notorious we were as a class in HIPS. We had the most prefects in the class and even the naughtiest people were prefects. I wonder how the selection system works?
It was nice meeting everyone else, knowing that some people have changed, and some people still remained the same. I can still remember most people, but some people seem to have slipped off my mind until some memory-pro people recalled the whole namelist. That's when i realised that OH! this guy/girl is in my class. haha... A pity we've lost contact with certain classmates but it was wonderful that most of us are still contactable in one way or another.
I'd love to meet all of u again!

Sometimes i lie, sometimes i tell the truth.
I don't know how many times i've lied for the sake of others' happiness. I don't know how many truths i've told for the sake of my own happiness. I'm so good with lies that no one knows when i'm lying and when i'm telling the truth. It's sometimes better to keep the truth. It saves a lot more trouble.

SingSoc bbq

Todae's bbq went relatively well.
We started off by meeting at bukit panjang plaza to get our bbq stuff. I bought my favourite onigiri for lunch =P we were actually quite fast when it comes to choosing the stuff needed for the bbq. I think it's probably cos we din need much ingredients for the simple aussie style bbq.
Shopping was done relatively quick. Den we met up with the late few before gg to faezah's place to prepare the ingredients.

I practised peeling carrots =) Next time i can prepare salads myself alreadi!
The rest of the ingredients were all sausages and stuff so we just needed to get them out from the fridge.

Then on our way there to SAFRA toa payoh, it freaking started to rain. Rain on a BBQ dae!! omgosh!!! I was hoping the rain will become smaller. It started pouring when we reached our pit. well the rainpour didn't last long and we began setting up the fire after attempting to dry the bbq pit. It's my first time setting up the fire independently without the help from girl guides or adults =)) An achievement eh...

The fire took some time to burn well so we took really long to cook the food. I wonder whether everyone had their fill? It's just a small aussie style bbq gathering. I hope everyone had at least a taste yea. I didn't eat much because after bbq-ing so much, i didn't feel like touching any of those sausages already. I was so busy being the charcoal woman, and bbq staff, that i actually didn't interact with anyone =( but oh well... there are other events and we'll see them soon.

BBQ ended quite smoothly with a few hiccups along the way. yesh! can't wait to see the first yrs in melb!

America's next top model (antm) cycle 11 has started! I feel so sad however, cos this means i can't finish watching the full cycle again. I managed to finish watching only the first 5 episodes of cycle 10. Got so exciting... and i can't continue. Then now, cycle 11 has started and i can't finish watching again cos i'm flying soon >.<

watching antm is nice because you get to see how girls bitch and you get to hear how they plot against each other. It's kind of interesting. Reflects some sort of reality. I think i can learn a bit from this show? Since i'm going to work in a mainly-girls environment in the future. I'm not exactly saying that all girls are like those antm girls. Antm girls are twice as bitchy i guess but sometimes, the average girl can be equally complicated too.

"Transitioning is like going through puberty all over again". Haha! A nice sentence I learnt from antm.

It's the start of something new...

Forget the past, start anew.
Maybe it was much better to forget everything, than to record them and keep reminding myself of what happened =)

I don't really know how i'm gonna do that, but i guess, somehow i'll survive as I know there's always someone right there for me.

1.5 months after my last post, i shall still abide by my thoughts and perspectives =)
Maybe my determination to keep these thoughts and perspectives mean that I'm a changed person eh? haha! Somehow i became slightly more effective at persuading myself to become less aggressive and judgemental. I wonder how much more effective though? Mebbe towards some only... lol

i've just taken my first step towards my resolution.
Only a few people know what it means...
That first step towards cutting the line was not an easy step, and it wasn't easy for me to bear with but I will hold on.
Despite my actions being inappropriate and illogical, my closest friends still supported me
I thank them for that support

I hope history will be history
but history continues to haunt me non-stop in different disguises
"history repeats itself"
Maybe nothing is history unless those events become invisible and out of reach
or the perpetrators are enlightened about how much hurt and sorrow they are causing

the perpetrators usually have no idea or assumes too much
I learnt in nursing that what matters most isn't what is logical or illogical
but whether one learns to understand another's perspectives
People can view a simple event differently
I view it my way and you view it yours
The most difficult part is, whether i can understand how you perceive it
and accept it
Well, maybe such a theory is just delusional
because everyone's self-centred and selfish nowadays
that includes me
I'm trying not to expect that much now
so i shall cut off the line
and save the trouble for every self-centred person

*hopes i can smile more widely than before

just to mention happy stuff...
i) i played ultimate frisbee today!! so nice~~~ i miss playing ultimate frisbee back in hwachong. used to be so much more fun playing in the central plaza. Well, the frisbee i brought over is kinda breaking into pieces but today, victory brought her frisbee down! it's a super nice one like those that mx has. Then since we had more ppl playing frisbee todae, we managed to start a game of ultimate frisbee with 3 per team =) initially ppl were getting bored because no one was scoring but once they found out that it was not that difficult to score, everyone was motivated to play! then a series of scoring came la.. but we became too tired from playing cos there were only 3 ppl running round the whole area in each team.

ii) after starting my semester 2, i got to involve myself in mroe game sports like badminton and frisbee which i really enjoyed myself playing (at least, they r the 2 games i can play well).

iii) i returned hy's uncle's coat already!

I just felt disappointed again... Maybe my likes just didn't click with the rest. The things that i like to do didn't click with the rest. Whatever i really really like, no one actually likes.

I love playing music together with other people. i just like the idea of playing in groups, or just duets. I just like singing along with other people, dancing with other people, i just like immersing myself in music together with the others. but the people around me don't like it the way i do.

I don't like soloing, that's why i've never entered a single examination or competition. I'm not playing music for the sake of some grade to prove that i'm a skilful person. I'm not out to prove that i'm an expert in music. I just like the idea of enjoying myself while playing music. I improve myself constantly not just because i'm some blardy competitive person. I just like the exposure to more music to gain more experience. In order to play more music, and more difficult, and nicer pieces, the only method was to improve myself. If i'm really such a competitive person, i'd be rushing to obtain grades, get some diploma or whatever and show the whole world that HEY! i'm the best around here, don't mess with me. If i'm really such a competitive person, i'd probably enjoy solos more than orchestras. Orchestras do not allow u to stand out at all. In fact, u can only be any other player in the group. I don't mind solos from time to time, but only in orchestra pieces. i don't really want to play a solo in front of the audience. yes, i'm not that good. but even if i am, i don't really want it either. a solo part is good, but not a solo piece.

I don't like playing by myself. i feel so lonely, and i feel that the music is horrible. Never mind that it's chinese music or whatever. Any music... i don't mind sitting there and listen, but i wanna play together too. forget it. Maybe i'm just some eccentric and unique brat who revolves around some group effect crap. I shall stop listening. I'll just do what i like. I'll just go out as per normal in search of things i like to do and dedicate myself to it. I'm sure i'm able to find people who similarly, just enjoy the idea of playing music, and enjoy the idea of playing together.

I think it's time to stop assumptions from going around. i'm sick of it, sick of admitting myself to things that are not true. i'm sick of holding on to one-sided rltns. i'm sick of tolerating all the rubbish in the world, including myself. i shall be the other me, mean.

Initially, i tot today's practice will be quite boring. well, they just had a performance ytd. So i went, and they started to watch a video of solos. hmm, i wasn't watching cos i was on the phone. i felt so paiseh... like i just came and i was so preoccupied with the phone that i din join the rest for quite a while. well, the phonecall was more impt than the video.

Well, we started orchestra-prac after the video at about 9+. like finally and i was soo happy. well, the songs are of kebun baru standard la. just needa sight-read and it's sufficient. i had my own fun playing music =) during the breaks, i began to practise those solos i learnt before. how much i've deproved! i was using the lousy erhu either qing or shan was using the prev time. it's really lousy la. it can't produce nice high-pitched sounds.

I forgot the guy's name, but it's probably the best erhu player in that orchestra. well, i shall name him "that guy". That guy was the only guy around. apparently, the other hongkongers din come. so it was just the 2 of us supporting the whole group. he's quite good and nice actually. he's nice to talk to, unlike first impression. well, he may be kinda ego sometimes too but when our bowing was in contradicting directions, we were like laughing at each other. he helped me quite a bit during the songs. if only he was exposed to more difficult music, he'll become a really good player n one who can appreciate good music. he's gonna bring his HuHanRou erhu for me nex week =DD weee!! good erhu!!

Actually, after i went off during dinner to catch the 6.35pm 350 bus, i waited in vain for quite some time, only to miss the 250 bus. Then i realised that they changed the entire stupid bus schedule and the 6.35pm bus was taken away. i was like wth wth wth. so i rushed off to take the tram to get to jaey's place to try her choc cake. haha...i reached rather late but well, just in time to savour the cake. it was nice! expectedly. i hope i dun get food poisoning =.= but it's really nice. i wouldn't mind the once-in-a-blue-moon cheesecake =)

Oh ya...for some reason, i keep meeting a lot of people i know todae. during the one hr break, i met Dominic whom i haven't talked to in ages but i managed to exchange a few words with him. Then i met charles whom i haven't talked to ever since the dinner but well, i was rushing off to the bus terminal when i met him. hmm... who else... i can't recall. i just remember talking to many people todae, even though the conversations were rather short.

I was thinking about myself for some time. am i taking things for granted? well, recently, i tend to adopt a external locus of control, trying to blame people for many things. but i failed to reflect upon my own mistakes. i sae things as though i noe a lot, but i dun really understand the whole situation. i may perceive things in one way, but the other party may be thinking in the opposite direction. by doing so, i may have failed to notice cues that someone is in need of help. I think i'm being too self-centred these days, thinking that the world revolves around me. well, it's not usually so. i think it's time i become more humble and stop being mean to other people. while i complained about being hurt, i think i'm also hurting some others in the process.

Just came back from the dinner. I really did enjoy myself. i think it's one of the best dinner i've ever had. It made dinners like the faculty and glenn dinner pale in comparison. It was held at this place called Leonda at Yarra in Hawthorn. it's a very nice but posh place. took us about 0.5hrs to get there by chartered bus. every single girl was wearing skirts except us. hahaha!

People whom i knew include py, faezah, sam, chinatsu and yuki. there were fellow glennies like michelle from my floor. I know that 2 more were from my floor too. forgot their names. lol. There weren't many glennies around though. We were assigned to specific seats and tables. py got to sit with the warden and anthony and the other glennies. haha. i was away from her. i sat with yuki and a few other internationals. my table was famously known as the internationals table according to Dai Harris. Yuki, me, Nhu (frm graduate house), charles (menzies), Galle (menzies. dun think her name's spelling was rite) and another chisholm guy (which i dislike) were sitting together with the director of LTI. haha. Yuki, charles, galle and i talked quite a bit. galle's from mauritius, like sharon. Her sister is staying in sg! in sengkang too!! behind my house too!!!! haha!! charles was very nice to talk to. i actually saw him on quite a few occasions but i guess today's the day where i really got to know him. yuki!! miss miss miss nice nice yuki =) i wanna go osaka and stay at yuki's place!

highlight of the post: FOOD of course =) it was a 3 course meal. it started with an entree. some salad thing with meat. it had a tasty sauce. i think it was sweet chilli sauce, mixed with veg, some beehoon and yea, meat. main course was chicken. according to py's style of description = it's tender, juice and moist. when u bite it, the juice just squirts out and the sauce blends in very well with the chicken. HAHA! ok i don't sound like her. faezah and i were betting that she would describe it that way. unfortunately, her piece of chicken wasn't that desirable =P there was salmon also and it looked really good. there was potatoes as side dish. the potato didn't look tantalizing at all but it tasted so so so good. the salad was really awesome too. dessert was the highlight of the whole thing! it was this triple chocolate with a thin layer of choc cake at the bottom. it was so so so wonderful. i just savoured every single mouthful. so sinful! but i love it so much. chinatsu and i were chanting..."mousse mousse mousse" when we saw the cake coming out =)

The whole involves... entertainment = music played by students from the different colleges. it was quite nice. i really liked the music. then everyone started dancing at the end of the dinner. it was very funnie! seeing dai harris and linda kirkman dance. linda kirkman is so so nice and cute. haha! there were many other people dancing too. I actually saw bill mcguinness there! i think he was representing health sciences. This is the first time i enjoyed dancing with the rest of the people. it was not the party party kind. it's not like...drinking and dancing. it was just like grooving to the music: retro and other good songs. but the dance ended with the wild strawberries song which i hated. oh well, py wun dance of course. budden, the chisholm people joined in. sam really liked dancing hurr...

ok la. it was quite nice. we saw the funny side of many ppl there. py probably enjoyed chatting with anthony and bret =p well, made a few friends too i guess, like charles and galle. but i forgot to get their contacts. oh, i got to know some other glennies too. dunno whether we'll talk when we meet again but i hope we will.

Tonite's the night of the gala dinner. I wonder what i haven't updated about. Hmm, was just wondering, what kind of good food they'll provide us. Glenn's formal dining isn't that nice. It just looks better, not like some random buffet we have everyday. the only good thing about glenn formal dining is the dessert =) the dessert is awfully good for the 2 formal dinings we had. we had fruit tarts and muffin with caramel. well, not all people like it. i do =)

Anyway, yesterday i was fairly irritated with some comments i received. well, people tend to view our group of glennies as muggers, studious, no fun. Well, i admit the muggers part. but i disagreed that our group lacked fun. We have our own share of fun, in a different way. The other internationals partying and chatting as part of their fun and activities. I'm aware that they do go out together sometimes of trips but it involves partying. Partying may be the mainstream culture over here, but it doesn't mean that it's the only source of "fun" and the only other meaning to "fun". i may not be sporty, but that doesn't mean that the rest are very sporty either? I think most of the time they just stay in the room and watch shows or play comp games? is that defined as having "life"? and us, the constant muggers = no "life"?
Our fun involves cooking together, playing around together in the davidson room, playing music together, chatting, going out together sometimes and playing our own kind of games. we don't party (except for me) because we don't accept that as "fun".
I'm also quite irritated at the fact they classify us as "those singaporeans". It's an individual thing. we, happen to be mostly singaporeans, just tend to do things similarly. It's a pity that the person failed to view us individually. At least, i don't classify his countrymen as all party kids who don't bother about studying and care only about drinking even though most of them do (shan't mention the country). at least, i noticed an exception somewhere in the very same college.

Olympics update. Stephanie rice won 2 gold medals! way to go, pretty girl! and eamon sullivan is on the road to winning his gold medal!! sullivan better win something. and i hope the two of them get together again after olympics =D haha...wonder i'm watching the olympics for. looking forward to synchronized swimming! missed out diving but oh well. good job tao li! for getting into the finals =) I've been reading aussie news everyday for olympics update. well, the news is all about aussies... so i noe more about the participants in aussie than elsewhere except for michael phleps. haha... that amazing water guy.

oh ya, yesterday there was this "slums" thing going on after dinner. it's this binge drinking + drinking games kinda thing between guys and girl organised by the seniors for the juniors. it was insane. people were drunk by 9+ when sharon and i were watching olympics. could see some RAs busy carrying drunk ppl back. What's worse was, we witnessed 2 girls spraining the ankles or injuring their legs. i think it was horrible because we could see that the girls were in extreme pain. hmmm.. wonder why they still have it. could see that many ppl were having hangovers and behaving weirdly even in the morning during brekkie. some ppl din go for lects. apparently, edgar witnessed a making-out incident. lol! and right before slums started, the toilets outside my area were flooded. wth. i have to walk a long way to get to the next toilet. so shitty. and someone obviously forgot to flush the toilet after shitting in the morning. zzz.

Trying to be a good girl, constantly updating my blog. I wonder how long i can persist. But well, whenever i start to blog, i neglect reading other blogs. zzz... when can i establish that balance?
This weekend has been a really busy one. The busy times started on thurs...

The few of us skipped a lecture to go out to ikea to get qing shan's prezzies. We didn't take very long to get there but we took quite a bit of time to choose the presents. As usual, ikea and its huge selection of products never failed to stop me from scrutinizing every single one. There were many toys, some of which i was veri tempted to get for myself which i wouldn't wanna get on my bdae either =P If only ikea sells bolsters. We got giraffes to add to their collection of toys. then, py and i headed off to the city. PY went to buy materials for sat's pot luck and i went imax to buy tickets for fri's The dark knight session. By the time we got back, we were really tired. i din manage to do anything after dinner.

On fri, morning was packed with a lecture and a self-practice session of assessing vital stats. Missies came to my room to have lunch after that. from evening onwards, after dinner, the glennies + ahxiang went out to the city to meet the rest of the people. We met at federation square for the olympics pre-games. There wasn't much at the pregames... just some intro of athletes. There was face-painting there so some of us got our faces painted with icons of the Beijing olympics. then some of us got handphone keychains with the olympic mascots. hehhh... my single handphone keychain got all 5 mascots on it =D We couldn't catch the opening ceremony because of the movie. Well, i din regret missing the ceremony either because the movie at IMAX was simply great. The screen was HUGE and yea, the place accommodated many many people. it was full house that night (the 9.40pm show). there were scenes of people jumping down from buildings and how i hate those scenes because of my height phobia. I was clinging to Gin (who's beside me). zzz... Well, heath ledger was great. a pity...such a good actor... Well, we rushed back just in time to watch the end of the opening ceremony where the olympic torch was passed to the last person. the guy who was hoisted up and ran the whole stadium in the air, i really admire him. His stamina and stuff are really really good. it's really spectaculer, the last scene and everything else in the end. i bet the front was even better.

On sat, i was kept busy the moment i woke up. went to preston to shop for pot luck. py, jo and i decided to cook cup corn and agar-agar. We got the stuff and by the time we reached back at glenn, it was already 1pm. Then we started making agar-agar while i cooked lunch. I fried elbows with nasi goreng paste and sambal anchovies. The taste was acceptable =P Our agar-agar was a bit weird in the sense that, we couldn't get some of the clumping off. well, somehow we pulled it off. Then we started cooking corn. omg...we used a whole lot of butter. better not let those who ate the corn find out. Then we were kept busy with preparing for qing shan's bdae surprise. We were designing the ice cream we bought for them as part of the surprise. i got a rude shock when i came in to find py n jo eating frm the ice cream tubs. actually, they were creating channels to form the names so that we can drop rainbow chips in. HAHA! Then after that, i went back to my room to prepare the presents for the 2 of them: creating dog tags for their giraffes. after that py and i went out to get the bdae cake. we took the security bus and we met qing shan at the bus terminal!! lol! actually, they din really see us (shan told us later that she did). we ran off to hide behind a wall while waiting for them to leave. zzz... in the end, we missed the tram and the shop was closing in a few mins time. so i ran all the way to the shop (about one tram stop's dist) to stop the shop from closing. it was super cold so i think my throat was partially frozen. We got the cake =D After that, we headed back to glenn for the parade. Yea... we surprised qing shan the moment we got back (who thought the cake was for ndp). NDP parade was quite nice, but as usual, i nearly fell asleep during the performance part after the march. The food kept me awake =) After the parade, we surprised the two of them with their fav flavours of icecream and new member to their soft toy collection. haha... all of us ended up dancing the hwachong mass dances together. i think some of them found it fun =) well, i guess i had the most fun. When everyone left, the glennies (sharon, py, jo, me and nic the ex-glenny) stayed around to play the piano and watch youtube videos and sang along until about 1am. lol...
I think the celebrating ndp overseas has made it more significant. I was very proud of my own country at that moment. well, i really missed home too...esp when my extended family went out together to celebrate my grandma's bdae. chilli crab =( i got to meet my grandma over 3G =))))

Tired tired tired on sunday. Tried to do some studying. finding time to relax and watch shows... but cos i slept too much to recover energy, i din do much either. haiiiz...

~possess the protection for my happiness: the omomodi. but what does "my happiness" represents? does it mean everything? I hope it includes all aspects of my life~

Very lazy to blog, but i shall blog again.
Just some updates about life.
- Semester 2 started and a load of work has just been thrown upon me
- I went Tasmania during the june/july hols and had quite a bit of fun there. I had my real experience with snow and snowing and i made plenty of snowmen and snowangels and snow figurines. i think that's the highlight of the whole trip =D see my snowangel on my msn display pic.
- Hy came to melb and we went to many places in melb like dandenong, belgrave and mt buller.
- After coming back from Tazzie, went out wif jaey n gang to some laserquest thing at crown casino. quite fun leh, considering that i was within top 3 for both games. heh...showing off now.
- Then, on one of the weekends, we went to erm, davina's place to celebrate her 21st bdae at Wangarratta. That place is really sweet and davina's place is really really huge! she has her own garden and stuff. We made sushi at her place at part of appetizers and i succeeded at my 2nd attempt at making onigiri! Weee! Then erm we just hung around her house for dinner and so on. I love davina's cat, called ella. She's such a nice cat to cuddle (no lah, just scratch and stroke only)
Did have quite a bit of fun over there with the rest of the ppl, but i guess i was really really tired at the end of it.
- Lotsa work to do, but apparently, most of my weekends are occupied with random stuff. This fri, will be watching dark knight at IMAX (something like omnitheatre in sg). Sat, we'll be celebrating national dae in glenn. LOL! it'll be a "party" at davidson room.
-Visited jaey on my way to CO (as described in the prev post). she treated me to wonderful wonderful ritz bikkies with CHEESE in the middle =) unavailable in aussie unfortunately. i can't wait for her cheetos to arrive so that i can munch on them when i drop by her room on the nex CO prac. HAHA!

Shall update for my own convenience and to waste my own time.
Just went for a CO practice yesterday and i really enjoyed it even though the standards are not as high as the ones i used to have.
now i'm on youtube and listening to some CO songs like Gu Du Feng Qing and suddenly, i just wondered, wow...i remembered playing the song but i can't remember where i played it. Is it because i played too many songs that i can't remember where i played it or who i played it with? I thought situational cues will help me remember. But i really enjoyed those CO performances i used to have. I joined so many COs, seeking challenge, experience, skills and friends and i never regretted wasting so much time on my own little passion which can only stay at that limited level of competency due to personal limitations.
Now i'm in melb and i'm no longer in a chinese dominated culture. My little desire to immerse myself in the chinese music is rekindled and i really hope that i'll have a chance to keep in touch with the culture. I probably regretted not going for any csco practices last year during my working year. Now i understand the feeling of "appreciating something well when it's taken away from you and appreciating it more when u have the opportunity to possess it again"
While listening to the song Gu Du Feng Qing, i finally recalled playing this song with CSCO. I think i gained a significant amount of experience and fun while with that group whom i'm close to, but not so close to. I'm really afraid of going back and facing my teacher/conductor after "running" away from the orchestra. i really want to go back, even during last year. I just contacted Darrel, the kind senior who's always ready to help me, and apparently still remembers me through facebook. He introduced me to this new CO, chao feng CO, probably the only CO in melb.
Chao Feng reminds me of KBCCCO, which i joined when i was in sec 4. It was a CO full of passionate uncles and aunties and occasionally, some young ppl. We played really traditional CO songs and i guess the standard of the songs weren't enough to satisfy my desire for challenging ones. Now, chaofeng is the only CO and there's no way for me to move on and search for more experienced and skilled COs. It is full of young people, seemingly quite passionate. The only downside is that, there's insufficient people and lack of resources for us to play more challenging songs (aka modern CO songs). At this moment while i'm listening to CO songs through youtube, i just missed home, and missed the companion of my instrument, the chinese music and the company of people whom i had a lot of fun pitting my skills against.
qing shan obviously don't like my competitive nature. I'm just seeking fun out of playing together and pitting skills. I love playing in groups and i dun like solos. This is so that i can enjoy some socialising through an avenue known as chinese music. That's the reason why i don't pick on any downsides of the CO, i've no other options already. That's the only CO, if i don't join, there goes my passion. It's just like how i left my passion of manga back in singapore and i missed it a lot a lot too.
Does anyone understand that? Hopefully.

Xuetying just got a huge bunch of us hooked on to watching proposal daisakusen. I dunno the intensity of "hookness" each of us are... but i'm quite hooked to it. I think i quite like the story plot. it's kind of sweet but kind of lame... wad.. "hallelujah chance!" and must pose somemore. I used to not like yamapi because 1) i dunno who he is 2) everyone likes him. gladys whole dae yamapi yamapi... i can't rmb but izzit jaey? she oso yamapi yamapi... but flamez would be tamaki tamaki =D i like tamaki too! but it's the tamaki in ouran high school la... not the one in nodame
I seriously seriously think that yamapi resembles a lot like kimura takuya, as in the actions and their behaviour. i don't know, maybe it's just the character in proposal daisakusen. they don't really like to talk about their true feelings. Just that, yamapi is more lame and funny in this show la. oh well, maybe it's just the show, not the guy. I wanna continue watching soon!

hmm... my life hasn't been changing much though.
I went out with felicia to the city to meet the rest of the 75ers. Zhanpei, jaey, yaqi and daphne came! (they r the only ones anyway). we had dinner at mekong...this vietnamese restaurant. felicia and i shared the usual beef noodles because the soup is awesome. Then we talked a lot after dinner. I can't remember what we talked about but it was kind of sweet listening to zhanpei niao jaey the whole night. he was niao-ing jaey about her drinking during dinner. lol!

Then yea...yesterday there was Glenn ball and many people went. I didn't go la.. it's more expensive than prom. I was out after lessons at 3pm to do an interview and i couldn't rush back in time to see the super empty dining hall. Kind of disappointed but i guess i'm ok. I can always see it during june when there's really no one except internationals around. It's really quiet and nice and i could create any havoc i want in the corridoor. but well, my floormates were back rather early. I think many ppl had hangovers? hee... i'm not sure. then yea, at night, all of us just gathered in the davidson room to watch 2 episodes of proposal daisakusen. kinda missing gokusen... it's really funnie and there's oguri shun inside!! weee~~~

I don't know how to explain life now. I guess i'm being quite neutral towards everything and i'm just trying to relax my mind. I hope i'll keep it this way =)

And oh ya.. i realised, my penpal found my pics somewhere and obviously, he saw it. zzzzz... I haven't seen his. he probably found it on frenster or facebook ba... bleahhhh... i wanna see his picture too!

Assignments piling...
Things to do piling...
Decisions to make piling...
Sianz...

I just feel like slacking everyday and watch fushigi yuugi/naruto everyday! There's still so many movies i haven't finished watching! There's so much shopping i wanna do too!! ahhhh!!

Shall find one fine morning to go to the city and do some rushed shopping for winter stuff =) I can't wait for end of june to come.

Just some updates:
Great Ocean Road was great!!! Beautiful Loch Ard Gorge, 12 Apostles, Bell's Beach, Apollo Bay, Lighthouse... wahhhhh!!! i wanna go again!
Footy... didn't get to watch live at the stadium but i watched from a tv outside a cafe. looks really exciting. Collingwood won essendon though... I think essendon was thrashed. Really liked the atmosphere in the stadium as part of the audience. well, went to watch Anzac day parade instead, but that's about it. Then toured around city aimlessly with the rest. There were 2 photos i took on tt dae that were really really hilarious. I was attempting to take myself and the background... then somehow, certain humans appeared at the back =.= with funny expressions =.= Getting those up on facebook soon.
Shopping trip with jaey. aiyo... spent so much on random stuff. lol... and the pancakes at the pancake place was simply fabulous!

ok la... not much happening these days too. getting emo and stoney tho. guess i'll b ok. MOVE ON MOVE ON!

A blatant attack on me. I shall retaliate!